Blog Entry: 10 Jan 2011
The last few days have been a whirlwind of family time, work duties
and school preparation. “School?” you ask, yes, ‘school’. I am off
to a seven week military logistics school on the east coast and I am
realizing that this is the first, albeit not the last, time that I am
away from Krista and the pups due to training. Krista has not the
experience of my absence due to my military duties and this trip is
poised to be a great learning experience. We will stand the test and
find our strength in one another and in our faith.
I lay on the couch, a night or so past, with Krista napping next to me
and the puppies lounging on me. The television was playing a movie in
the background and the lull of the conversations brought slumber with
each passing minute. It was at this time that I felt safe and secure,
accepted and understood. I smiled gently, closed my eyes and joined
the others in their rest.
So much in my life has changed, evolved, over the past … nearly a
year. I found my emotional breaking point and fought back from it,
rising above to be healthier and stronger than ever. I learned how to
change my life for good, where my energies need to be and what to
focus on. I learned how easily some people can quit, and what that
says about subconscious dedications. I have grown and matured in many
ways. I have invested myself into my community, I have found a solid
church home and I have surrounded myself with good people. I have
reconnected with family and old friends. I have made new friends and
new family. I have realigned my goals and set out upon the path. I
am optimistic, upbeat and happy. These are good times.
I cannot thank God more for His introduction of Krista into my life.
I have few ‘great friends’, Krista is the best. I have never been so
understood and supported by anyone. Even when times are hard and I am
performing horribly as a person, she is there to encourage me through
it. I return the favor and share her difficult times with her. I
encourage her and love her. We balance each other well and expect
nothing more from the other than a whole-hearted 100%. We are
brutally honest with each other, but delivery our ‘reality’ in the
most loving of ways. We receive one another gladly and hold no
defensive positions. It is a wonderful friendship to share and a
nurturing relationship to be a part of.
I know that my absence hurts her heart, as it does mine, but I know
that this is particularly rough on her. I know that she is supporting
me, but gritting her teeth as she smiles, working to remind herself of
all the good that can come from this endeavor. I know that she is
AWESOME. I could not be more blessed.
Always Faithful, Always Forward.
SA&LC,
~Ryan
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